Thursday, May 19, 2005

u noe it like when some ppl offend u n dun even noe wad they hav done...its just sad...i mean ppl like me is refuse to admit i m wrong...but some ppl just dun noe...terrible isnt it...anyway...i was just hoping he would not be himself actually come to a realization....anger subsided le....i was just waiting n hoping for tht...den tht silly bugger had to come n inject in full dose of it back into my system...oh well...he like persecutes me for every wrong i do...u noe the diff....when i tell someone i tink wad ur doing is not right...i mean it as...i tink u can improve n be better....but when he tells someone wad he does isnt right...he just uses it to show the person tht...haha...ur as screwed up as me...tht sort of thing...stuff like disturb julian...yea la...being racist is bad...but its just a joke...if i were racist i like take an uzi around n shoot all those hu were of different race lah...some ppl just cant tell the diff between a joke n serious stuff...another difference...when i insult...i do it all in the good name of fun even thoou it might get overboard n hurts...but when he insults... u noe right from the start tht he is going to sort of 'screw u up'...sigh...today i was dam mean...but i tink wad i m doing is futile...ppl tell me dao...den dao back lah....i believe tht if someone is daoing u...u shud go ask the person wads wrong...by daoing back...u show u dun care...by insulting him...u add fuel to the fire...i tink i shud noe best after countless lessons i learnt ...sigh...i m so depressed...i need food water sleep n a vision...i tink tht since like christmas...i tink i m being changed...gradually...for the better...i tink i m guilty of it too but heres a passage we can all apply in our lives. I guess no one can say he is reali not guiity of it...

"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.

ok down to today...yep...kinda boring...PE was fun...sorry wei ren...didnt mean to ram the ball straight at u...ermmm....eng debate...boring...the whole day was sianz lah...den after tht had lit workshop after school...oms...lasted like 3 hrs...i m beat....now like no energy to study chi...i mean its not realli it sucks...its just it comes at a wrong time...n time realli means after school n before chi O levels...i mean like everyone says awhile only wont kill but evveryone is doing it...so the sum of all of tht is ONE HELLA OF A LOT OF TIME WASTED!!!

ok then lit wkshop...quite sianz lah...i feel sad for the teacher....but tht this generation of our school boys for u....it realli didnt need to be so long either...maybe we r all just restless...

|cowpoo| 5:53 PM|

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